It’s 1:32 am Tuesday morning and you are awake.
I know that’s not my hiccup but I’m just wondering why you can’t sleep.
Why you keep picking up your phone at intervals: Scrolling through your newsfeed, forcefully refreshing even when there’s nothing interesting left to see.
Why you constantly inter switch between apps; Facebook, whatsapp, twitter, scrolling up and down, checking and rechecking the picture you initially thought was perfect to be displayed.
What are you looking for?
It’s none of my business but I somehow happen to know that you feel lonely tonight, you want to talk to someone about your day, you want someone to call your phone right away just to ask how you are. You want to join in the fun conversations, at least they seem like fun…hanging out, what bae did …when bae does…them kinda things so you have become “super” friendly even though we both know this is not you.
This person you are becoming, you don’t even know. I’m scared that you would wake up one day and find yourself on a moving train heading in a direction you know nothing about. When you think about how you got on, all you would remember is how it seemed nice to go with the flow. How you knew it wasn’t right but it just had to be right because it was about time and you were plain tired of singing yourself to sleep.
But what if you just relax your grip, take a sit, deeply breathe, lean back and enjoy every bit of this journey called life. I’m just saying. What if?
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