Yes, you are correct, I am happy. That is not even a question you should be asking now. In fact, read the title again, and you will see the exclamation mark.
Today, I want to tell you about many things whilst trying my best to suppress the Iya Ibeji character inside fighting to be heard.
‘Prai, prai, prai, praiiiiiiise tha Lord! Halleluyah’, kind of things want to happen here, but let’s see how long I can hold myself. lol.
There are words scribbled in my heart in tiny pieces of paper and I want to sit to tell you about this month first and the adventures I encountered on Lagos buses, about total strangers that became familiar friends and conductors who screamed so loud, I wanted to console their vocal cords. About the idea to preach on buses and the battle of shyness that was defeated because there are lives that must be reached and your pulpit can actually be the person sitting next to you.
But, if I tell you all of that, won’t I forget the pending gist about new meals tasted, music that has moved my soul and spirit to worlds far off and the decision to start reading books that changed my perspective. What about language and how it felt like poetry on the lips of a woman I met on the street and this new hunger to drink from that well.
All of that is important, but I also need to tell you about God and everything He stands for.
So yes, I am happy and the past weeks have been pregnant with emotions ranging from joy to uncertainty, weariness and faith, rushing and the caution to just wait.
Breathe, you are still alive.
Questions have been asked, tests carried out, doubts, all of these happened but we are here, still standing, alive with hope wrapped as a gift on our palms with a new year just around the corner.
Do you know that if you are not careful, you may look back at the year 2017 and be convinced you that you have nothing to be grateful for, but that’s a lie. Yes, you may not have met your goals. In fact, maybe your new year resolution was buried just a week after entering 2017.
Maybe testimony time in church is filled with people narrating their accomplishments and it seems like you cannot even point to one. So you sulk and ask silently why you seem to be standing on the same spot whilst everyone has moved on.
See, you are not a mistake and I need you to look around and remember those little things.
Remember love, laughter, friendship, answered prayers, better understanding, mistakes and lessons learnt, restoration, forgiveness, purpose, Holy Spirit, life, God. Remember that something has changed and you are not really standing in the exact same spot. That there is progress.
Your heart should burst into a million melodies of colourful balloons that spell joy because God has dealt kindly with you and His dealings with you differ from His dealings with Sister Nkechi and Brother John and you should just face your front already and thank God for your now.
So yes, I know that you’ve been told to write resolution, goals etc. I have already done that…but this is first and foremost. A sincere heart of gratitude.
Also, let us make a decision to be aligned in 2018, to walk as God leads us per season.
“…and the ark of the covenant of the Lord went before them during the three days’ journey to seek out a resting place for them.”
So, it is God that can give us rest and keep us from being overwhelmed from everything we want to happen in 2017.
One more thing, guys, I am grateful that you read this blog. Yes, purpose, vision, growth etc. but the journey is enjoyable and easier when you have people who support and encourage you. I am tempted to mention names but time would fail me to start listing. Just know that I appreciate the love and feedback, despite the errors and imperfection.
Thank you for seeing a girl pregnant with potential and encouraging her to not abort the words growing in her belly.
A better 2018 for us. More of God.
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